Today is a day of putting one foot in front of the other, being grateful that we can. One of drawing air into diseased lungs, and mind full of confusion but it is a day God has given, so we will listen to the music that weaves it’s way into our souls and words that touch our hearts being grateful. Giving love and wishing for blessed abundance and peace to all. Good Morning my world!
So much has been written and shown of the many injustices in our country From rapes, child and spousal abuse, murders, race card played, hunger and homelessness. Social media trolls and inciters and some commentators with good common sense all have their chance to enact their freedom of speech, especially n light of the harm done in Ferguson, MO with the Mike Brown/ Darryl Wilson situation and now the Eric Gardner choking death, so much anger has erupted across the newsfeeds and social media. Yes, protesting should take place but burning, looting, interrupting sporting events, entertainment venues and blocking traffic are just wrong on so mny levels. Yes we should be upset and fed up with the policies that allow profiling and brutality in the name of policing, we should have our noses out of joint for ALL the injustices, children going hungry, being denied a meal in a public school because there is not enough money on the books, a veteran of whatever war should not be homeless or without medical care and housing, we should be angry at immigration and the lack of proper border control, we should be angry! We should be angry that choices are being removed from the rights of women for birth control or abortion, that Christianity is being challenged daily, where apathy has become the norm for whatever goes on in Washington, when we don’t vote we are saying we don’t care.. But anger does not equal action sitting in front of your computer ranting and inciting more anger solves nothing, helps no one! It is time for each one of us to stand up from comfy chairs and take one step after another to CHANGE, change yourself and the way you think, volunteer, raise funds, GET INVOLVED and for Gods sake VOTE! I have never been so ashamed of my fellow citizens in this country when the statistics came in that only 30% elegible voted across this whole freakin nation!!! What is wrong with this picture? Shit happens do to the shrugging of shoulders and the “what can you do?” attitude. What you can do is become informed, read the plans for your own city, what is your mayor,city council, you state rep/congress doing about the injustices within your own city, county and state? DO you attend your planning and zoning meetings to see what is going on in your own neighborhood, have you ever attended a PTA meeting ,kids in school or not…you do know your tax dollars support your local schools why do you not know what is going on there? In whatever way you can, do your part, volunteer at a homeless shelter, for the Red Cross or Salvation Army, join CASA and advocate for the little ones that have their innocence stolen, go to a nursing home to visit the elderly and lonely,MAKE A CHANGE in yourself and change will happen in your neighborhood, city and state one step taken by many can stamp a path to change. Be the change our country needs to stop the injustices we all rant and rave about on social media. Put into the universe the love for one another, I promise it will come back ten fold to you.
1. Waking up each day
2. My wonderful husband, my hero, my teddy bear
3. The freedom to worship
4. My beautiful children
5. My handsome grandsons
6. My weight loss
7. I have enough to eat
8. I have heat, coolness, water
9. The roof over my head
10. Good friends of the internet
11. The Present day military & Veterans that allow my freedoms
12. Days without pain and depression.
13. Music and the emotions it makes me feel
14.For eyes to see all the wonders of Gods creations
15. Grateful that I am handling my grief better this year than last
16. Thankful for the bed I couldn’t sleep in last night, just can’t sleep, so tired.
17. The gift of artistry, poets, authors, musicians, painters, sculptors… Gods hand shown through human hands
18. Waking in pain, for I can feel. Many due to injury or birth cannot. Grateful.
19. Today being National Toilet Day…I am grateful for modern conveniences.
20. Thankful for those that know me, and despite that love me anyway.
21. Grateful for a new day of living and loving
22. Thankful for Gods paint brush coloring the world in such vivid colors.
23. The ability to listen, see and understand the mature 12 y.o. in my life. He brings such openness, beauty and love.
24. For the chairsitter that makes wonderful lifeblood each morning…coffee, warm, rich coffee ummmm
25. Grateful I live in a city where protesting is done peacefully and with respect.
26. Thankful to have so much to be thankful for, truly blessed.
27. For having one day across this nation we show compassion and feed our homeless and needy, should be everyday!
28. Grateful for common sense, I am not among those shopping on Black Friday!
29. Hard to find a reason today but I am alive, thank you Lord.
30. Thankful for those that love me, you fill my heart with joy.
Last night just a few miles from my home a ten year old little girl was shot and killed as she sat in her living room, it was a drive-by. A few nights before this one a six year old child after buying bubble gum walked out of a convience store with her Daddy was shot and killed, a few days prior the school shootings in Washington. I don’t know how many more but I am sure many that we don’t hear about on our local news, I only know it wrenches my heart each time.
I don’t cope well with hearing or reading of these deaths, each time a father dies in an auto accident or a mother passes from breast cancer my heart hurts and I begin to cry. It is a loss of a loved one to someone somewhere. There are all types of memes and even books or counselors to help with grief and perhaps I am too sensitive to death of others because I have experienced so much of it, I only know my heart aches and I want so badly to reach out with a hug and a helping hand yet I don’t as I can barely hold onto my sanity at such times.
I find it quite difficult to have the right words to say to those that have lost a child or loved one be it brother, sister etc. What others struggle to say at such times, sounds so trite to my ears although I know all are meant from the deep recesses of ones heart and they want to help the ones left; I just cannot speak words of comfort as my tears flow from my cheeks with my pain of loss. It has been four years this February since I lost my daughter, you would think by now I would be able to support some semblance of decorum but I cannot, there must be something wrong with me that I am no longer able to act “normally” for others going through their loss.
Woke to the sound of a small plane overhead
looking out the window, see a banner from the tail
unable to read it’s message, but thought what
a beautiful way to start the day if that banner read
God loves you or Today is the first day of the rest
of your life or something on a positive note that would
start everyones day on a cheery note…..but…sigh
life is what it is we all wake with thoughts swirling
through our heads, bills to pay, jobs to go to, children to feed,
laundry to do, parents to care for. Some will think of their
teminal illness or a loved one that is dying. Some will wake
alone having lost a spouse of face the loss of a child,
There are a million thoughts and deeds to get through
each day. Isn’t it amazing that we have the ability to face
this day with strength and resilance should we choose to ?
I am choosing to be happy today that I am alive, that I
have pain that says “you are alive” I hope you do to.
OPENING A SOUL
With a gnarled, shaking and wrinkled hand
the old man swiped drool from corners of his mouth
on to faded, thread bare khaki pants
raising the mouth harp to his now dry lips
begins to gently blow into the piece
deep bluesy notes echo through alleys
a newly darkened cloud filled sky
Tears begin to roll down his leathery cheeks
as he pushes forward the rusting tin can
with his toeless work boot hoping
his music will open a soul,
Copyright Len Williams Carver 2014