Tonight I Cried


Tonight I totally lost all semblance of strength and just burst into tears. Not a day goes by I don’t think of my daughter, it’s seven years and the pan is as raw today as it was Feb 19, 2011. Generally, I can think of her with happiness and a bit of a trembling lip when the fact she is gone hits me. Yet tonight I lost it as if I had just received that horrible phone call. I know the agony of losing her will be with me until the day I pass away but Lord I wish it didn’t hurt so bad the majority of the time.
My immune system and other ailments have me weak physically and stress has had me for a really long time, depression as well. I just thought I was doing so well and if others were around and hubs weren’t asleep they would be putting me in a straitjacket.
I don’t know why I am writing this just needed to get it off my chest. I need no pity or comfort I just needed to write it.

4 thoughts on “Tonight I Cried

  1. My twin sister died June 2013. I definitely know what you’re talking about though! It’s always something so random and minor that sets me off, and it’s hard crawling outta that dark space. *Hugs*

  2. And you wrote this so well. I can’t offer you anything but strength. Keep writing keep getting the pain out, it never goes but it will get easier to cope with! 💜💜

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