Category Archives: Love

THAT WALK


There is a place I am trying to acquire

I need to do more to get me higher

I want not riches or big fame

I am simply asking to daily call on His name.

Lord I am not good at many things, just a few

But all I need to be good at is praising YOU.

Copyright 2013 LWC

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You knocked and I should have let you in,

In to my heart and my life, the one filled with sin

As each new day awakens, I do not always think,
Of the blessings You give with each breath I take.

Yet you send me flowers and sunshine each day

I know I should praise and thank you, instead I

brush You away.

I have no time to read Your word, or to even talk

I am too busy to take THAT walk.

After all, You know my life, my story

As I stray from the offer of Your Glory.

Yet You wait, in spite of my rejection
To open my heart and let You in,

“The Invitation” You continue to extend.

My life in turmoil and confusion
the sorrows and hurts like an erosion
I have no where else to turn this day
As I feel life and happiness slip away.
On my knees I began to plead

I opened Your book and began to read.
Then I felt Your presence and heard Your call
“Come my child, I will give you all,
“A new life I offer today.”

Beginning today I will open wide

My heart and my life, with You

I will accept… I will abide

 

 

copyright 2013 LWC

 

SPIRALS


English: Fibonacci spirals Español: Espirales ...

English: Fibonacci spirals Español: Espirales de fibonacci (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Spiralling~~like water going down the drain
that vortex of darkness and the whoosh explodes
in the brain.
Depression grabs and holds so very deep
depths never known before
great gulping sobs for voice
language gutterall, buried deep in the abysmal pit
afraid to come forth in its verocity~
the body not strong enough
to withstand the force of the screams.

 

TO MY FRIENDS IN THE CLUB OF GRIEVING MOTHERS


English: Two candles in love. The flame is inv...

English: Two candles in love. The flame is inverted heart shape. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

Tonight I sit here with a heavy heart knowing that I will not have a call, visit or card from my oldest daughter and my heart and soul is in agony because of this. Then I think of all of you and how each of you are suffering as well and my heart hurts even more so. WE have lost a child that will not be here to give us a hug, a laugh, an” I love you Mom” this Sunday.

 

I just want to say I love all of you so much and my heart and soul suffers for each of you . I offer prayers for strength and comfort and wish I could be there personally for each of you with a big box of tissues, hot tea or coffee, a shoulder to lean on and arms to enfold each of you.
Because our children are not here to do this  here it is from me to you “HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY”  and may we each see a sign from heaven on Sunday to know that our children remember us this day. Love and hugs my dear ones thank you all for being here for me. 

 

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Grieving Mothers


************* This was sent to me because it was read and they thought of me, I am glad that my friend sent it and it is worth sharing. I want to say, not only is it hard to lose a child but with Mother’s Day being Sunday the loss of a child for a mother is doubly painful. So I thank my friend for sharing this and I pray for each mother who has suffered this agony to have the Lords strength and His comforting arms around us this Sunday. God Bless to my fellow grieving mothers~ Love and hugs (((xx)))

It is frequently said that the grief of a Grieving Mother is the most intense grief known. When a child dies, parents feel that a part of them has died, that a vital and core part of them has been ripped away. The grief caused by their child’s death is not only painful but profoundly disorienting…..children are not supposed to die. These parents are forced to confront an extremely painful and stressful paradox; they are faced with a situation in which they must deal both with the grief caused by their child’s death and with their inherent need to continue to live their own lives as fully as possible. Thus, Grieving parents must deal with the contradictory burden of wanting to be free of this overwhelming pain and yet needing it as a reminder of the child who died.

Grieving parents continue to be parents of the child who died. They will always feel the empty place in their hearts caused by the child’s death; they were, and always will be, the loving father and mother of that child. Yet, these parents have to accept that they will never be able to live their lives with or share their love openly with the child. So they must find ways to hold on to the memories. Many Grieving parents come to learn that “memories are the precious gifts of the heart…[that they need] these memories and whispers, to help create a sense of inner peace, a closeness” — with AJ Collins, Joanna Blanchard, Patricia Marie, Patty Van Ochten Williamson, Liza Tristan and Tammie Voyles Holland.

 

I KNEW


I don’t know when I first knew God;
I know it was as a child. Looking upon
His face like the sun full of brilliance brought
me peace and joy at like times.

His divine light of love consumed each part of my heart
and has never wavered, though at times I

Had like a candle flicker a wavering of faith,
these are the times in life when the struggle and strife
become a mind’s distress.

But I am saved by His mercy and grace,
I have seen His wonderful miraculous works
I have seen what you should want and what
you need… a Beloved, Merciful, Forgiving God
of tenderness and love.

ACCEPT HIM


joy!

joy! (Photo credit: atomicity)

 

In my times of life’s great trials and distress

 

I know my Lord is always there, He never rests

 

He protects me from evils of the world

 

His arms of protection around me enfold

 

My belief and my faith stay strong

 

Because the Lord will always keep me safe

 

When I feel like I am weak

 

My faith will always keep my strong

 

I have so many tears I could cry

 

Friends, family and the world passing me by

 

I know He will prevail as I drink from His Living well

 

The water is His word from above
It is filled with hope, joy, and love
Open your heart and mind, let Him in
He will fill you with His mercy and grace
Knowing He gave His Son to prepare your place

 

When life has changed and not going as you planned

 

Have faith that the Lord can give you a better eternal life.

 

Your heart and life will fill with Joy and delight
So much love and hunger for Him will fill you
You will hardly sleep at night.

 

Accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior today
Just ask Him into your heart and to forgive your sins
He never refuses, when a sinner knocks He answers
“Come In.”

 

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“DANCING AWAY WITH MY HEART”


Lady Antebellum sings this song “DANCING AWAY WITH MY HEART” which has inspired me to pen a few lines in tribute to my father as it is close to his birthday and his death date. I first heard this phrase from my Daddy more years ago than I really want to remember, but this is my way to honor the man who fathered me. He was not the best Dad in the world but he was mine and I miss him terribly.

I looked up at my Daddy so handsome as he leaned against the door jamb on one of his rare visits home, tapping his foot to the beat of the music on the radio playing in Grams kitchen. When the tempo changed and Patsy Cline began to sing ” I FALL TO PIECES”,  Daddy reached out his hand and said “May I” as I giggled I put my hand in his and felt  the hand of a working man with its callous’  busted knuckles from bar fights, as much as from the nails and boards he worked with everyday, and stepped on the tops of his work boots.

He said “Step on up there good now,”  as he held my hands tightly but gently so I felt secure.  We began to dance he moving his feet slowly but to the rhythm of the music, turning, twirling, gliding across the dining room into the living room on Grammies waxed floor singing the song along with the woman on the radio. As it came to an end Daddy dipped me and I laughed as he said “Daddy’s girl dance away with my heart!” I twirled away and he called me back to tell me he was leaving for work in California and he would be back as soon as he could.  It was many years later as a grown woman expecting my first child that I visited my father in California, he took his girl to Disney Land in Anaheim  and treated me to dinner after.  He placed the order at the restaurant  while I visited the loo and it was a wonderful joy filled dinner and conversation was full of the days events and the years past, catching up but feeling like we had not been apart. As we exited the restaurant and waited for the car,  Daddy asked if I had enjoyed the meal then proceeded to tell me I had eaten rattlesnake.  Now I don’t know with expecting his first granddaughter or the real idea of that meal did it; but suddenly I was stepping to the side of the building to lose my dinner. That night Daddy played that old Patsy Cline song on his record player, holding out his hand he asked “May I?”  this time I laid my head on his shoulder and enjoyed the security of being held by my father after so many years apart. He asked after my happiness and the baby and her father. And when the song ended he said  ”You will always be my little girl now dance away with my heart”.  I laughed as did he, those are the only two times I ever danced with my Dad and I am so glad I have those memories. I love and miss you so much Dad.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY and take care of my little girl, dance with her among the clouds and stars as you did with me.

Keith Carlos Williams
May 3, 1928 ~ May 19th, 2003

MOTHERHOOD


It has been said  many times “You get what you pay for,” must be why as a mother I am broke and poor

 

Motherhood (film)

Motherhood (film) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

while my last bank transaction made my children ‘Millionaires’ !

 

RANDOMNESS OF HEART AND TEARS


Mountains - Klondike Highway

Mountains – Klondike Highway (Photo credit: blmiers2)

Today I am sad and heartsick, why I don’t know but here are ramblings between heart, mind and tears.

Life is filled with running water as our background music,
we climb mountains grasping at trees to end up with pine sap
on our hands and as we try to wipe it away on the ground cover
we end up with mountain junk stuck to us.
Mountain junk defined as morning by morning greeted by wildflowers of every
hue and color,  grasses green as the deepest emeralds found in these streams.

The sun bringing about a chorus of chirping and buzzing as life for the day begins;
with shining, serene rivers washing up into a silver spray, with a melody of peace.

All the while hearing the background music to our souls, the lilting sound of piano music,
the gentle strum of an acoustic guitar and the piping of a golden flute.

I feel better just going on that trek through my imaginary world! Hope this brings you a little peace in your heart and soul as well.  God Bless my friends!!

 

THURSDAY NIGHT


Cover of "The Bucket List"

Cover of The Bucket List

My Thursday night addiction ( yes I have several), “Greys” came on and I thought (uh-oh, danger zone ),  there was a movie a while back called “The Bucket List” and seems everyone ‘jumped’ in or on and now have one. So I thought about mine and felt like I have been through a life filled with  good and bad (more bad) but I am a survivor so a bucket list is just not something I ever wanted to have.  But I did think of a few things I have never experienced and would like to before my time is through here. so not in any order of importance here are a few:
* S’mores…yes I know EVERYONE has had this experience …NOT… but I would love to, I always look at those sets they sell at Walmart at Christmas time but never have the funds to purchase something so indulgent.
** A full body massage…won’t go further except that I am a puritian in this the ‘Winter’ of my years.
*** Catch a fish…strange I know since I dislike camping, fishing etc, unless it is at the Hilton where they have hot tubs and room service.
**** the circus …although I dislike clowns …go figure
***** get a tattoo…just a small one with my daughters name …but I really really dislike pain  at any level.
****** the many mile yard sale through the southern states not only for the sale but the scenery
******* Isreal
******** A family reunion with ALL attending at the same time!
Okay that is my “Would Like To Experience” list what are your top want to’s?